Deja-vu.

The thing is.. I am scared about how I feel .. about you, about him, about me. But mostly, about you and me. You know it's been a while, right? Since I've felt something else than hate, disgust or disappointment about you. And that's the scary part. I'm used to it. To feeling nothing for you. And then.. you talked to me. And then again. And again. But.. there still remains a question. Is it worth it? Or, moreover, are you worth it?


So .. Let me get this straight. If you start talking to me everyday and night, I'm obviously gonna get attached to you. Even if I never planned to, in the first place, I will. So before you start getting close to me, make sure that you won't just suddenly leave me. Cause you know, that happens to me..a lot.

I'm a light sleeper, but a heavy dreamer.

Poza asta e facuta pentru tine, mi-a zis. Da, gandesc prea mult. Serios, mult prea mult. Sunt ca tipa din He's not that into you, Gigi, dac-o stie cineva. Fix ca ea sunt. Disec fiecare lucru, fiecare conversatie, fiecare imagine. Ceea ce, dupa cum spune in poza, nu duce la nimic bun. Poate de aia nici nu-s fericita prea mult. Gasesc cumva ceva care nu-mi place - asta e inceputul - ma axez pe lucrul respectiv, si de acolo, creez cea mai complicata panza de paianjen, plina de vise naruite si sperante desarte.

Ma pierd in vise. E ciudat, stiu. Singura explicatie pe care am gasit-o e ca ma satur de realitate. Asa ca incep sa visez. Oriunde, despre orice, pe oricine. Asa ca, my dear, n-ai tu idee de cate ori mi-am imaginat ce o sa zici, cum o sa zici, cum o sa raspund, unde o sa fim. Nimeni nu creeaza mai multe scenarii ca mine. Partea proasta stii care e? Niciodata nu se intampla ceva si-n realitate. Cumva, singurul scenariu pe care-l scap e tocmai cel real. Poate de aia nici nu sunt prea buna la asta.. Stii tu, life & co.



Where does a thought go when it's forgotten? - Sigmund Freud

Future.

Un singur lucru de spus: nu-mi plac pisicile. I am more of a dog person.


I've been roaming around,
I was looking down at all I see
 painted faces fill the places I can't reach..